Wednesday
Wednes day February 2024 This will always be the day that should have been so wonderful. I was so excited that morning. I didn’t realise how wrong it could all go. I didn’t think about the possibility that there might ever be something wrong. It had all been so seamless with your big sister: we wrongly assumed it would all go the same way for you. The sonographer was very jolly and made jokes about you being in cahoots with the other babies in the waiting room because all the babies she’d seen had been in difficult positions that morning. She looked at your heart, and decided to come back to it because your arm was in the way, apparently. She checked everything and listed all your perfectly measuring, perfectly formed body parts and organs. She came back to your heart and still couldn’t get a good view, so she asked me to go for a wee (to my relief) and see if you might turn around. I didn’t know that the next time I used that loo I would be in tear...